Finally, after nearly a whole year and three practical tests I've finally become a liscensed driver of the UK. Take that DVLA, you and your fake looking but official provisional liscense, and give me the real thing. Ahh, that felt good, now to be financially drained by the purchase and operation of an automobile... the tortures of life.

Also on the agenda I finally decided to give my half the proper clean over, I'd forgotten the carpet was that shade. It put my DVD and videogames collections into some real perspective though; they're massive. At least 100 games and 200 DVDs (including all discs in boxsets), not to mention all my old videos and my books. I don't know if that's alot to others but it sure is to me.

On the down side of things I've ruined one of my favourite series for myself by reading wiki, well I guess that's what you get.It's just there are so many plot twistes in Hellsing volumes that even if I know them I'll still enjoy them watching the Hellsing Ultimate OVAs. Furthermore, why is the most recent plot twists of the One Piece manga so good? WHHHHHHYYY!

It doesn't make sense I've slept away my four day weekend working hours nightmare including the double shift yesterday that rounded it off. I have recently discovered the device that is MSN, it's f*EFP*ing annoying, even it does allow a live conversation. Plus I got a load of friend request from people I don't even know, I blindly accepted because I don't have any contacts on MSN apart from one friend and my cousin. Yet, I have the entire entertainment network that is the internet at my disposal and I have a vast videogame collection with several great games waiting for completion.... but AAARRGGHH!

I just want to smash something! You'd think I'd have learnt my lesson from punching through the glass in the back door with my bare hand (that proves stupidity, not strength). ARGH!!! I'm just gonna vent a few hates: Big Brother is s***, Simon Cowell and anything he has created should just disappear, soap operas need to be annihilated, the London section of the Olympic hand over was embarassing, that Yugioh videogame is insulting....

-pant-pant-pant-... ok shutting up.

Well this has been an interesting holiday so far, start with the boring but nerve racking school results. My exam results weren't awesome but I have been completed accepted into my second choice uni and offered chem instead of Maths at my firstchoice so now I've only gotta choose... anyone got a coin?

On to entertainment; I've finally finished the Battle Royale manga, I actually achieved this ages ago but I just wanna announce it somehow, after year and half. One of the most mentally shocking reads in manga you'll ever see, rape, kung fu, real world enactment of DBZ, guns, brains & guts. Seriously though worst body part physics but then again the best, but it makes you think the writers have little faith in human nature. Finally saw Dark Knight everyone goes on about how great Heath's last performance is as the Joker, I agree, but no one seems to recognise the great writing and choice behind the character's portrayal. It's a perfect Joker; a sociapathic lying murderer whom's greatest ambitions are to cause chaos and to bring the Batman into that chaos, it's both performed and written superbly. Hancock wasn't that bad but nothing special in my opinion, and I missed Wall-e oh well. However, my current interests now lie in the Watchmen graphic I was lent by my friend's dad in exhange for lending my Afro Samurai DVD. It's like seeing when the Justice League retire but with drugs,sex and violence, just set a little earlier, and I hear Watchmen is the latest comic book to earn a movie adaptation.

My videogame collection sems to be multiplying by the second and I'm even adding games I know I'm gonna hate or that I know will be bull, casing point Yugioh: The Duelists of The Roses, I've never been more offended by a videogame, and I've played Da Vinci Code. It takes the English civil war, which for some reason is skipped when referring to the other civil wars as the First and Second, anyway the game inserts the Yugioh cast as important figure in English history and to be honest I find it really insulting!

Ahh, just raises the question why I even bothered buying the damn thing since I knew it'd be bad but insult was unexpected

Ahh! How can so much happen in 8 days? I've been in Portugal for 8 days and due to lack of access to computers or anything that speaks a language I understand that isn't my parents or siblings I've been unplugged from my world.
As if coping with withdrawal from Pepsi Max, decent chocolate, TV and Games wasn't enough torture. I find LittleKuriboh has not only released several videos but even seemed to have started an abridged war video that has sparked a chain reaction from other abridgers (if you can't tell I'm a fan of most things abridged). Plus, Hancock and Dark Knight are now out in England, and I didn't even know about the latter being released until watching international News channels. So now I have three films to catch (third is Wall-e) and a DVD box set of Gotham Nights to buy. I have to cope with impending doom from finding out my exam results soon, my mum's hassling me over my work discount card, I've decided to pay for future driving lesson expenses since I failed again just before my holiday (Damn you, British Lane system, why can't bus lanes be permanent? or why did I have to fail for only one reason? AGAIN!) There's probably some really cool game out as well just to rub it in, doesn't matter though, I got MGS4 I need nothing else! Oh yeah, and Super Smash Bros Brawl is so popular that since I bought to get my sister to shut up, GAME have actually sent me a letter asking me to sell it back to 'em for £22
Why does the world feel so different!? WAAAAAH! Aw, screw this I'm seeing Batman tomorrow, Hancock after work on Sat and I'll marathon Gotham Nights at some point just to make myself part of the system again.

....I hate society sometimes, even if I'm barely a part of it, it has too many effects on me

Ok, I'm a little emotional right now, not for serious reasons though but still valid. As a typical english child I hate Shakespeare & his work,but there was always one play that annoyed me the most:
Romeo & Juliet
Don't get me wrong I'm not trying to be macho by saying that or claiming it didn't make me cry, but that's it. It didn't make me cry, even at the end, which is what annoyed me about it, it should make me cry it's supposed to. I mean, what has more tragic ingredients? Yet it doesn't affect my heart strings to any real degree, but I know and understand why it should. Heck I even feel a little sorry for the characters' circumstances but all I feel is that; "a little sorry". Why? I don't know, maybe the lingo of the times, maybe the impossibility, or maybe a deep seeded hatred of Shakespeare block's me from feeling the tragedy.

However, today I found a story that brought tears to my eyes as Romeo & Juliet was supposed to. (Just to clarify I'm NOT saying everyone else is, or should be, brought to tears by said play. It's just that it's a romantic tragedy and the whole purpose of that genre is to induce tears, so for me Shakespeare failed in that purpose) It's not the first story to bring me to tears e.g. 'The Amber Spyglass'(book), MGS3&4 (games) or 'Man on the Moon'(film). All the crying being caused by the ending, and the latter was true as if to rub it in. Granted only the first of this list was romantic but still.

But the story today just seemed to warrant complaining about Romeo & Juliet at the same time as praising it for succeeding as a romantic tagedy.

'Samurai X: Reflection' is the story I speak of. Yes, you need to know the story of Ruroni Kenshin, including the series/manga as well as both 'Samurai X: Trust' & 'Betrayal' to understand most of it, but I do know those stories and I am glad I do. Yes, it's a story filled with violence, blood and death. Yes, it's completely fictional. Yet the ending is completely worth crying over like a young child in my eyes.

Point 1. Failed my driving test; damn you GT5 for not teaching how to control the clutch on junction that should not ever exist, but does! Junction in question looks like this: flat until just before junction then wild turn left and a 50 degree angle shift up in the road. I stalled twice and failed as a result but at least the rest of the drive was PERFECT, oh the pain.
Point 2. I smell, according to my co-workers I smell enough to warrant being told to put on some Lynx (Axe) during my shift. I'm not offended really since I kind of agree sometimes, but then I go and bang my head on the underside of the stairs they told me to go under to apply said scent (to be out of sight). Not a big deal except I happened to hit a bolt and upon feeling the back of my head I find I'm bleeding so I have to spend the next 20 min being patched up and explaining my stupidity.
Point 3. Why the hell did I get an e-mail from Halifax bank about my account with them!? I've never even spoken to one of their staff members knowingly!
Point 4. Hellsing Ultimate kicks ass! (Just had to say something positive)
Point 5. Who the hell cares about the break dancing twit that won Britain's Got Talent!? Thanks to the hotmail news flashes I now know he defied doctor's orders to perform and is now in talks with weirdos who want to make a Billy Elliot movie about him: Why is the world so insane!? I mean [remainder of point censored].

We all have that first time where we drink a little too much and we end up puking over everyone else in the room and passing out in the surrounding puddle. Hasn't happened to me yet but still.

Last night it would be fair to say I definitely drank too much for my own liking namely; a bottle of wine, two smirnoff ices and a couple glass of something that I guess was shandy. So I'm just going to walk through my symptoms as I remember them, one symptom being I can still remember everything I'd expect to remember.

First off loss of proper balance, the loss of my ability to feel pain, can't vouch for my speech not being impeded, being willing to even consider dancing to music I hate (even considering to dance takes a few units).

The rest of my symptoms require a story: Seeing as my friends actually succeeded in dragging me near the dance floor I took up an observing/head bobbing position at the back of it with a few friends. The next thing I realize I'm can't stop looking at a girl whom I've had a crush (for lack of better term) on for years. I just watch her face the entire time and smile at the fact she's smiling and enjoying herself. You're probably thinking I went over and confessed or something but you're wrong; I wasn't that drunk. I am a shy person and that's never going to change, and I didn't let it become anything more than a crush of her brilliance,kindness and beauty.Anyway I then find one of my friends completely drunk and receiving counselling from other friends as he'd reached a stage of paranoid delusions and I even get into a drunken debate with him on the subject of them; saying he's completely wrong. He eventually calms down with counselling from others, including my crush. The irritating thing as this happens I start my own rambling about my crush to a couple of friends and they go and tell her. She turns me down via them and her own friend but I'm not angered or hurt; I feel free.

I guess it's just in the knowledge that I have an answer that just makes me feel good about it; I don't need to dwell on it anymore. Helpful since we are going to different Unis and everything. The only thing I regret is that I didn't have the guts to say anything myself.

Rambling over.

That's right. Less than 4 days is all it took me to somehow kill my copy of GTA4! Why is it always me!? All I did was run it ragged for 4 days straight, and to rub it in I deleted my data since it just stops at the point before gameplay saying "loading- undress to kill" and after that it now stops at the same point now saying "starting new game". To be honest I don't mind doing it again but the fact I have to go to hmv 4 a new copy just hurts. However I just pray there's something wrong with the disc not my PS3

Today was pretty normal, except for some reason my relatively short shift at work seemed to last longer than any double shift I've ever undergone. Could be the killer headache I still have even now.
However, as I reach the haven of the clock out machine I realise something and ask myself: WHERE THE IN PETE'S NAME IS MY LOCKER KEY!? It's not in my pocket, I leg it back to the till and it's not under there or my chair. This is where I begin to loose a little sanity I'm crawling around the basket till area of a supermarket and somehow escape without questioning, might have been the uniform, but anyway. After ten minutes of finding no spot marked X. I give up and go to the manager office to report my idiotic foolery; turns out they found it directly next to the locker. I MISSED MY SMEGGING POCKET, HOW IN THE SMEG!
It just seems to sum up my actions at work: I assumed my stuff had been stolen just because the number on my key was wrong, I read another collegue's payslip because I was dumb enough not to check it was mine, and more.
Now I'm just listening to the end theme of Lupin III: Episode 0 for comfort, to try and repair my self-destructing ego with upbeat jazz music.

No joke, 2 minutes after the last entry I made a discovery about my PS2. Next to the left hook connecting the lid to the rest of it there's a small metal rectangle, I instantly came to the conclusion that it was the source of the trouble. I took a pin to it to push it down to, presumably, its correct position. I then put the game that discovered this problem and SUCCESS! The PS2 worked how it's supposed too and, more importantly, when it's supposed too. All I can say is: BOOYAH!
Annoying thing is due to internet failure on the laptop I retyping this with my PS3 20 minutes later, and it's taken forever. But you know what I just don't care. It's quarter past 3 and I can finally go to bed.